It all started with this comment last month from Michele:
“As I read that post above, I got to wondering more about you (I am naturally curious). So, I went through some of your old blog posts (see someone reads them) looking for something that might hint (for me) at what your overall goals are for yourself toward better health, not just the Hot 100 challenge. I can not find anything. I may have missed it. I did learn that it is almost your one year anniversary of this blog. I know you are a self proclaimed recovering yo-yo dieter. But what are your goals for regaining or achieving a healthy life style including weight you would like to shed? Just wondering.”
I gave her a brief response and promised I would explain more someday. That began this attempt to do justice to topic that I had been thinking a lot about and was not sure I could make sense of for myself, let alone explain to someone else. What were my goals for a healthy lifestyle? I do have them, sort of, floating around in a vague, unscripted way inside my head. There are things I want, things I am working on and working towards. Do I consider them goals though? I’m not sure that is the term I’d use, but that is probably how others would classify them.
So I sat down at my trusty keyboard and I started to type. And then… nothing.
Where was my eloquence? My creativity? My writing mojo? Apparently it was caught up with my incoherent, jumbled, whirling thoughts. Oh this post was so hard to write!
“Why?” – you may or may not be asking yourself. But I surely was asking MYSELF.
Not because I didn’t have ideas. I had them. But I just could not find a way to explain them. And I got stuck with knowing that I had already touched on some in past posts and that I did not want to be redundant. And I got stuck with the realization that some of the goals were so big, so broad, so comprehensive (at least to me) that they would need a future post all their own to do them justice.
As loquacious and long-winded as I often am, I do like to be concise when called for. This called for it. But no one answered!
So this may not be what you were looking for, Michele, but it’s the beginning. And I apologize for the lack of specificity here. I know all about writing goals. But, for the sake of getting this on paper, so to speak, I am starting with the big picture. So, for now, let’s consider this more of a vision than goals. And I will do a lot of thinking and, likely, a lot of writing, to see if I can make some sense of this for myself and for anyone else who might be interested.
As a starting point, here it is, my healthy lifestyle vision:
I want to have a “normal” relationship with food.
I want to end my yo-yo cycle, put “diets” behind me, and incorporate healthy eating as part of my daily life.
I want to stop mindless snacking.
I want to control food instead of food controlling me.
I want to be physically fit and strong, pushing myself further.
I want to like myself and be happy with how I am living my life.
And, yes, because I am keeping it honest, I want to weigh a certain number that I think is reasonable and doable for my height and age.
Stay tuned for the riveting next installment, coming next week. As the keyboard-tied Karen struggles to find words to describe the indescribable.