So, which should I share first – the good news or the bad news?
The bad news: I had a horrible eating week. Quite an about-face from the week before.
The good news: I’m still here. I gave serious thought to quitting the challenge because, quite honestly, it isn’t motivating me. Clearly I have to find that motivation inside myself. I went into the challenge somewhat reluctantly, because I had not done well on my last two, yet here I am. Can’t fault the challenge. Just as I can’t fault any diet plan I ever attempted. It always comes down to me. And this week ME was not cutting it.
What do you do when you have a bad week or bad day or bad binge? Do you just pick yourself up and go on and consider it water under the bridge? Do you try to analyze why you slipped or does it not matter to you? Is it all about getting back to habits or also about the reasons behind the eating? In the past I would have thought about what led me off track this week. “Analyzed” it. Tried to learn from my mistakes. But maybe I am just too tired of falling of the wagon yet again to look at why I fell. And I’m not sure it matters what I have to do to get back on, I just need to grab hold and throw my legs up over the side and start riding again. Honestly, I’m pretty darn worn out with myself at this point and suspect some of you are as well.
So enough of that. Just had to get it out here and be honest. Now I need to go back to my voice of optimism. Woo hoo for optimism.
One thing I do enjoy about the challenge is that I sit here once a week and really think about what obstacles are coming. (Not that it did me much good to plan for the ones last week… but still.) So, of course, Halloween is looming. My plan is to not eat any candy. Unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on one’s mindset), our neighbors all gather for a pre-trick-or-treating party with pizza and all sorts of amazing homemade dishes from appetizers to desserts. My plan is to go late and eat dinner at home first, and carry a water bottle in my hand. Or maybe I need something clever like a magic wand or other costumey item to keep my hands occupied and away from the buffet.
All right… enough rambling. Let’s get to my goals. I am thinking some changes are in order again.
- No Halloween candy.
- No mindless eating while reading books. (That 1000 pager was a snacking nightmare.)
- Eating on plan all week.
I’m looking forward to Monday when Halloween, and its accompanying obsession with candy, will be behind me. What are you looking forward to?