How did it get to be July already?! And why am I starting a new month heavier than the month before?
I have been struggling. I have not been staying on track with what I know works for me. I have had good days but I have also had too many bad days in the mix. Shoulda, woulda, coulda. I am not kicking myself. Well, not much. I have made mistakes and I have learned from my mistakes, but then I have not applied that knowledge. I can see it all so clearly. Yet seeing and doing are not coming together right now.
I have excuses. Don’t we all? But they don’t matter. Because I know that the reality is that whatever things have caused me to flounder this way for the past month (okay, two months, but who’s counting) will always potentially be there as part of my life and since I don’t live in a bubble, I need to get over it and deal with it better.
I am reverting to my old yo-yo ways. Just a little. A tiny yo-yo bouncing up and down on a short string. But it is enough. I will not ride this roller-coaster any higher!
The time has come to get serious. Very, very serious. I need to rededicate myself, get back to basics, and clean up my act. No little cheats. No big binges. Clean eating. On plan. In control.
July will be a tough month for me. Lots of little trips. Lots of meals away from home. Lots of events where others control the menu. Lots of potential challenges. But I know in my heart that I can do this. Enough screwing around. The dieting honeymoon phase clearly has ended and the seven year month itch has arrived. But I am done scratching.
And I can tell you one thing for sure… this blog and all of you are my money-back guarantee that I will indeed succeed. Once and for all. Because I am not going to ever write a post that I have given up or given in or gained it all back. Can you read my determination between the lines?
July has arrived. It is hot outside. It is hot in here. Time to stop feeling the heat and get out of the oven.
Postscript to yesterday: More to add to my list of why life is good, thanks to Shira, who honored me by including my blog in her post entitled “Can blogging help you get healthy?” If you have not read her blog, The Lighter Perspective, I highly recommend it. She is a successful maintainer who writes thought provoking and inspiring posts. And when she lands her own talk show on Oprah’s network, you’ll be able to say you knew her when:)