I stuck my toe into the moderation waters and almost got pulled under by a rip tide!
I thought maybe the time had come. I was wrong. The moderation part itself, the little planned cheat, went okay. (At the ballgame Sunday, instead of a soft pretzel I decided to have a few bites of a few different desserts. Yum.) But later in the day when I was home again, I started eating. And didn’t stop until hours later. As with my overeating bout last week, it was all considered acceptable food for a South Beach dieter. Whole grains, fruit, sugar free pudding. But the quantity! And the way I just ate one thing after the other. And the fact that I was not physically hungry. Had I left my willpower at the ballpark! Yikes.
So now I know. I know that I am not ready to eat sweets in moderation because they may cause a huge backlash later. I know that I cannot eat even healthy, thin, low-calorie, pre-packaged, whole grain bagels. Well, I CAN eat them… that is the problem. I can eat four in one sitting. Four. Ouch. And since practically every bite I have overeaten on this diet has been while watching TV or reading a book, I know that I need to either give those up (eek) or figure out a way to stop the snacking.
So time to recommit. I feel a little slippage. I am going to regain my balance and move forward with what I know works for me:
- No sweets or off-plan treats.
- No bagels of any shape, size, grain, fiber count. Period.
- No grains at all for a few days. No bread. No crackers. No, no, no.
- More vegetables.
- More water and tea.
- Less time in front of the TV and with a book.
Some of these goals I plan to stick with for a long time. How long? That is still to be determined. Long enough. As long as it takes. No, make that… longer than it takes! Some of the goals I will relax sooner. Like adding back in the grains. Because I don’t think the grains themselves tripped me up, I think it was the ones I was choosing and the timing and the quantity. (And my husband better eat the rest of those bagels soon or they are going in the trash can!)
I got a bit too complacent. A bit too relaxed in my new improved habits. Time to tighten the belt again. And as for moderation, I am just going to close the door on that for now. Someday I will open it just a crack and see what happens. But I am ready to slam it shut and lock it if that is what it takes this time.