Do you have one? A number in your mind for what you want to weigh? Your own personal ideal body weight?
How did you come up with that number? Is it what you weighed at some point in your life (like high school or before you had kids)? Is it dictated by some online calculator or insurance company chart? Is it simply what has always been inscribed on your driver’s license?
Has your magic number changed over time? Why? Because you got older and are trying to be realistic about the impact of aging on weight? Because you just can’t get to your goal? Because you realize that the number was too low or too high and your body wanted to stay somewhere else?
I have been obsessing thinking about this a lot lately. I have a number. It is a number I have known before. During my yo-yo years. Sometimes when I was living at that number I felt that I wanted to be thinner – the number was too high. Sometimes I had worked hard to get down to that number and it felt pretty good. But never like Goldilocks – just right. If it was just right, wouldn’t I still be there now?
I am not quite sure how I came to my latest goal weight. I think I chose it because I expect to be able to actually maintain there. I think I chose it because I believe a lot of my clothes will fit me at that weight. In the back of my mind do I care about what some expert or society thinks my number should be? Not really. But a little teeny bit.
And I have learned something about that magic number. It may stay the same, but the size and shape of my body at that number may be very different over the years! Middle-aged spread has certainly set in upon my waist. And certain parts are heading a bit south. But hopefully all my hard work at the gym is paying off on my body somewhere.
The big question in my mind is what will happen when I get to that number. I fully intend to stay there. But can I and will my body cooperate? And will I be satisfied that I have lost enough? Will I go back to the person years ago at that same number who wanted to lose just a few more pounds and then proceeded to let that craziness cause a gain instead?
I really would like to know if you have a magic number and how you chose it. Or are you waiting until you get there to know you have arrived? And for those of you maintaining, how did you choose your current weight and are you satisfied there? Has the number changed?