I don’t like New Year’s resolutions. I don’t like making them. I just discovered that I don’t like writing about them. I don’t like the societal pressure to engage in them. I don’t like that they lead to crowds at the gym. I don’t like when people ask what mine are. I really don’t like that I can never, ever KEEP them.
That said, let’s explore my clear emotional issues with such a simple and widely engaged in practice.
I would guess that every time I made New Year’s resolutions in the past, they were about losing weight. Or eating healthy. (Because really I’m not sure I’d eat healthy if I didn’t need to lose weight – but that’s a topic for another blog.) For example, a few years ago I remember my husband and I resolved together to cut out “white” and refined carbs. That didn’t last very long.
Now don’t get me wrong – I really agree with the general concept of making resolutions. I looked up the definition just to be sure. As a verb, to resolve is to come to a definite or earnest decision about something; to come to a determination. As a noun, resolve is firmness of purpose or intent; determination. Isn’t this really what I have been talking about since I started this blog?
That brings me back to asking myself why I am so resistant to give in to this time-honored tradition today. I think it all stems back to the fact that I always failed to keep resolutions in the past and I’m afraid that I will fail again. Could it be that simple? Or do I really just not want to commit to certain things? (Like trying yoga again, for example.) Or am I just being contrary and rebelling against peer pressure? And does it even matter?
So I resolve… not to set New Year’s resolutions. But I AM going to admit, here in writing, that there are certain things I intend to change in the coming year and longer. I won’t bore you with a list because if you have read my blog you already know some and will learn more in posts to come.
Instead, let me start the New Year by saying that I fully intend for 2010 to be a great year for me. And I hope it is for all of you as well:)